so what can I say, I’ve been stressed out…….I’m over worked and I want to run screaming from the building. I went in today even though I have rules about that. Can you tell that I’m a little angry!!! It’s okay I’ll get over it. I’m cleaning up my eating and getting my cardio done………..frankly I would like to kill someone or just eat and drink whatever I want. WOW I know… so sorry I know that ya’ll think my life is all about fun and lifting but in the middle of all of that there is reality! I did get the fuck of my life yesterday………..let’s just say I’ve not screamed like that in a while. It’s good to get the pipes cleaned. I’m working hard on being positive and working toward my future, where life leads us is always a question. I’m ready to face my future because the past was yesterday, I always choice the present and shoot for the future. Stay with me, I know that I can’t always do everything but what I do………….is FUCKING off the hook and I do it just for you!
Kiss ; )

I read my last blog, I was so excited about getting my mgr’s job back…….but that’s why you’ve not heard from me. I have a way of overwhelming myself, so that’s what I’ve been busy doing! It’s really hard when you feel like every little thing you do has to be the best, if it’s not right, it’s wrong, if you don’t win you failed……do you get the picture. I would love to find balance but I just can’t spell it. On a brighter note, I did WIN trainer of the year, the company I work for has 33 clubs,  this was a HUGE honor. When people speak of it I play it down, but really between you and I it was one of the happiest moments I’ve ever had professionally. I don’t do this for thanks, or recognition, I do it because it’s my gift that I live to touch people and help them find their way in life through fitness.   I’m sure there are people reading this thinking what the fuck ever, sorry it’s true, we are all here for a reason……..I wish some of my reason was to be a pro FBB but so far that’s not happened. LOL!

So yesterday was my 50th Bday, and let me just say it was a hell of a special day for me.  I took half a day off work, went to lunch at a great Italian meal then off to downtown Cincy to the coolest bar, Catalaic Ranch………….there’s a bull.  I couldn’t seem to get my short ass on it, but I did get a pic with it…..lol

I’m going home for Christmas, I can’t wait to see the family and friends. This has become my home now, even though you’ll never take the southern out of me, people so great that I feel loved and at home.

I promise I’m going to keep you updated on what’s going on with me, I so wanted to include a cool pic I just send of me off DM site but I never know who is looking at my blog………….you understand. ;  )

Hugs and Kisses Ya’ll

I love this time of year, when I lived in Miss. I lived in a haunted house….don’t laugh it’s true. The owner who’s name I will not say died in the house. He was always moving he’s cowboy hats around the bedroom, I’m not sure if he was trying to scare me or what I just kept telling him to go to light. I live on a old street here in Cincy I was hoping to see something so far nothing.
It’s hard to believe how fast time passing, I’m heading down to MS for my grand daughters 1st birthday. 1st I’m excited to see my kids and her… it’s been forever. I hope to see all my friends while I’m there and when I”m coming back home I’ll be stopping in Jackson Tn to see Brandie and anyone else that will come out to play.
OMG! sooooo this week my reg. district mgr came into the
club and said she needed to talk to me….She is a great women, she is a FBB, very strong good person. She told me she
nominated me for trainer of the year in the company…OMG!!! That would be so great, fingers crossed. She also gave me my QCS job back, I can’t tell you how happy and excited I am. I can’t wipe the smile from my face.
Thank you to all that follow me, take the time, money to be with me. You are appreciated!

If you follow me on FB at all you know I was in Destin this past week. Did I ever need that, good God it’s been since ’07 since I had a real vacation. I know I’ve traveled but when there are photo shoot’s, contest involved I don’t count that as a vacation. This was eat whatever I whated, drink whatever I wanted. I would sleep late, go shopping, lay on the beach. You get it, whatever the fuck I wanted to do I did it. I did workout at the Gold’s Gym on the main drag, nothing to serious just to get the blood pumping and give that food some place to go. I just think it would be sweet to live some place next to the ocean. I fill revived, like I can go back to work tomorrow with a good attitude, before I left I just felt like I wanted to run screaming. We all know you can’t do that, cause no matter where you run there you still are.
Good news I’ve gotten the photo’s and vid’s from my shoot with Denise…………..H O T!!!!!!!!!!! Those will be on the site soon, and the video’s will be available for purchase. The thang with Lisa and I is HOT, but come on this is Denise!!!
Back to work, not to mention the cardio I’ve got to do……people are calling about doing photo shoots, and I’m hmmmm not right this moment….lol There is such a thing as being too off season, maybe……don’t tell my trainer, but I’m having a pizza tonight, yes I said it. The 1st thing he’s going to make me do tomorrow is step on a scale, ulgy I can just hear it now! It was all worth it.

stay tuned for those pics ; )

I’m so excited, it’s so great to be here, to feel the breeze off the ocean. I want to say a big Thank you to Dee and Peter for making this happen. If you are looking for a great place to stay in Destin contact them at 513-561-4683. I’ve done the whole beach thing, shopped till I’ve dropped. It’s going to be a little hard to go back to Ohio……………..

Kisses

Friday, started the weekend off right with a friend’s wedding… I had loads of fun, even though trying to walk down that hill was a bitch in those heels….OMG!
Saturday, after work it was off to find Findley Market here in Cincy…that IS the coolest place. There is nothing that you could want that you can’t find there. Some of the best food ever!!!! Now that I know what I’ve been missing I’ll be there every weekend. Ohh and I saw my 1st protest…….1st of all, I agree with them the banks are holding on to the money…….but do you think for one moment that anyone is taken notice to any of this???? Hell no! plus if you want to make an impact go to the rich area of town not Over the Rhine where they don’t give a shit…………they’re poor!
Sunday, it”s music video time, i shot a video with this band http://www.facebook.com/Keepmefromdreaming
I was Wanda, “worlds strongest woman ” at the circus …there was lots of rushing around today. I had to get my feet and nails done……..then I got lost trying to find this place. Wow what a great bunch of people…..there was all kinds of folks there. The nice thing is they are different and so am I….so there was all this acceptance of that. They were so great to me and I had loads of fun. Macy made me this great sign that I got to take home with me and I’m putting it up in my room! It’s fucking great!!!! I was very hungry,on the way back I went to AJ’s Roadhouse on Hwy 52, on the sign it said best hamburgers……I have to say they are RIGHT!

You know I thought Memphis weather was crazy till I moved to Cincy and it has everyone beat. Thursday I was laying out, Friday I was looking for as many layers to put on cause I was cold. Today the sun is shining but it’s 62 degress and I’m loving it. This past week sucked in a lot of ways, I had no trainer all week so that meant my workout sucked ass. People just don’t get how important having someone push you pass what you think you can do. He’ll be back on Monday THANK GOD!!! Every day counts, and I hate wasting time.
Looks like I’m going to be in a music video next weekend, I’ll let you know what’s happen with that………….I might be bench pressing the drumer…..lol

Kisses

It’s been a long time since I’ve free squated, my knee being jacked up then the surgery, then just thinking what the hell the smith machine is good enough. Well today I just felt like I needed to at least try….. YES! I believe I’m going to be very sore the next couple of days.
A photo shoot this weekend busy trying to come up with a theme and just the right sexy thing to wear. I think you’re going to like it, doing it around the house lots of great spots out back and in front.
It’s been a busy week so far, that always makes you look forward to the weekend. Unless your one of the lucky ones that everyday is the weekend, where can I get signed up for that job?
Alright my darlings it’s time for bed, just had to tell you how excited about my training it just wouldn’t wait.
Kisses Ya’ll

It’s so nice to finally have a day off, and what makes it even better, it has finally cooled off. I was going to Dayton Saturday to go to the mall at the Green but it was over 100 degrees.. no wasnt going to do that. No biggie had a great but quite evening and a pizza that would make you slap you’re momma, it was sooooo good.
There’s always a million things I need to do, some fun some just need to get done. Well, i didn’t do anything I should’ve have done this weekend. It will always be there next weekend…….
My training is on track and I’m excited to say that I’m still at a 146lbs, my trainer is proud of me. With the photo shoots ahead of me I’ve just got to stay in focus. There’s lots of exciting things coming my way and you know this girl always likes to share……….; )

Does Labor Day really mean summer is over, I hope not…..I’m done with the heat but not looking forward to the gray our winters bring!!!
This is a pic from the Masters in Pittsburg.
Kisses

soooooo I chatting today on herbiceps, it’s been a year. now that I know my cam works I’m going to be chatting again on my site. I’m sorry it’s been so long, but I swear I’ll make it up to you ; )

It’s been a crazy but good week, but I’m so glad it’s Saturday! I met a friend for drinks last night which was fun, so tonight I’m going to lay low…..OK, Who am I kidding, there’s no way I can just hang at the house on a Saturday night this girl needs to find some trouble to get into. ; ) But that being said I do enjoy going out the front door and flexing for the dinner train that comes by on Saturday night.

My workouts are going great, and I’m glad to say that I’m still under 145lbs. I’m putting lots of focus on the body parts I need to bring up, and I can already tell a difference. I need to get to Hyde Park gym more often, that club has better leg equipment than we do, but it’s not always convenient.

I’m giving ya’ll a pic from my shoot with Ed, Wow this man is good………..enjoy.
Kisses

Always be ready to work when you’re with Denise, which it’s why you’re there! She and everyone she has around her are the best….. You walk away from her shoots feeling like a princess and it’s really hard going back to your real life,lol..

It’s been a while since I’ve seen the ocean but there was no such luck this time, too much shooting and too far from the beach in Ft. Myers….but that’s ok.. I thought the shoot went great and very excited to get to share that with yall. Due to some great advice, im going to take the rest of the year off, and come back next year with a better weight to go to battle with these girls. I needed focus, and I have it…. I just got back from a weekend shoot from Indy, can’t wait to share that with you also in the coming weeks…..smoking hot and funny stories to boot!
Kisses Ya’ll

Well what can I say, I was in the top 10 but…….I really wanted to be in the top 5. If you’re not 1st you’re last…..per Ricky Bobby, lol..its a southern thing!!! I was on stage with the legend’s of the 90′s and I can’t be happier. The women on that stage are the one’s I’ve looked up to since I started bodybuilding more than 15 years ago… There’s no shame in placing in the top 10 of that. You know what was great, people and fans there knew me. Everyone was so great, it was everything I expected in this competition. I almost can’t believe that I was on that stage.

Sooooo… I’m heading out to FLA on Tuesday to shoot with Denise M, then it’s back to put my head down for the North America. My client’s really will not understand but this is who I am….This is my measuring stick of my Bodybuilding life, not sure why but it just is
Kisses ya’ll

It’s funny how much pressure one can put on themselves, there have been many conversations with myself….. I have to laugh, I remember the 1st time I steped on stage and how much fun it truly was and how I felt as if I belonged only there. That feeling is back and I’m excited to go into this show knowing how great I feel and the rest doesn’t really matter anyway…. I can proudly say that I have left it all on the gym floor, and now it’s time to have fun, and that’s what I’ve longed for………….being on stage. I truly look forward being on the stage with the best!!!

Girls let’s rock this stage and give them all a show, and that should not be forgotten. I’m all about hard/smart work……..and all that has been done. My hope is that we as The FBB’s can put aside our differences and be as one on stage each knowing the package we brought is the best and let the judges come up with the rest. I’m proud to be on that stage with each of them. We will represent what we truly are…beatuiful , sexy and the standards that all women should want, and what every man should desire. Muscle….only one word and that’s just
S E X Y!!!

It’s been a great weekend, not only did I spend time with friends but I didn’t have to work today! I did however, go workout and do an hour and half of cardio…………..I really need to get me an ipod, a girl needs music to get her through such a thing. All I do is talk to my self and sometimes I even just want me to shut up.
If you live in Southaven MS, you know an era is coming to an end. Olympic Fitness Ctr will soon be closing there doors, the word on the street is the YMCA will be taken it over. It”s a shame, we could have still been there and saved it………..their loss!
I use to think that it took too much time for karma to catch up with the people that have wronged me, now it just seems karma has her peddle to the metal and is not even slowing down for stop signs………..look out she may be knocking at your door next……….lol
I’m excited about shooting with Ed Darrnell again this weekend, I’m including a photo in my blog that he took. He has a great eye and I’m looking forward to next Sunday.
I need each of you to have me in your thoughts these next 3 wks as I prepare for this show. I’m ready to go into battle, knowing that I’v done everthing that I could do to be my best! I’m doing this for me and each and everyone that loves and supports me!
Happy 4th Ya’ll

It’s Thursday, and I’m sure that I can’t take another day of anything, cardio, carb depletion, long hours, and nothing to drink. So that’s why I’m screaming……..I try hard not to be a BITCH but some days I think fuck it! This is where having goals come in, you can’t say fuck it, because you have a goal…….then there’s the whole thing where people look up to me and I’m suppose to be soooo strong……ok you can stop laughing…….some people actually do look up to me. So I’m keeping my head down and bloging to ya’ll so I can get this out and not think about it anymore. I just hate when I don’t have all the time I need to do my cardio or go see my chiropractor and I would have today if my 3:30 would have just let me know she wasn’t going to show the fuck up. Really how fucking hard is it to text me and say you’re not coming……………so that just started my afternoon off to a bad start and it just rolled down hill from there. I will say this, coming upstairs and talking to ya’ll has made it better. Tomorrow will be a better day, due mainly to the fact I get carbs, a steak, and Thank God some wine! Look out smile you’re due back on my face tomorrow without fail.
Thanks for letting me vent, sometimes that’s what a girl needs…….a long with diamonds, botox and let’s not forget about shoes.
Hugs and Kisse

It’s hard putting your head back down when you’ve had a little fun, but I have. I just keep reminding myself of the goal, I can have all the fun and food I can stand after this is over with. The person that thinks this shit is easy just needs to try it out and I don’t mean for a day! I’m a little bitchy……I hate that, it will be ok….just needed to vent a little.
Indy was fun, the weather was perfect for the drive. The cottage I shot in was amazing, THERE WAS A POOL INSIDE! It was very cool place to shoot. I have photo shoots Saturday and Sunday….busy, busy,busy. I’ll let you know how it goes.
I’ve got to get back to work, more cardio to do….
Kisses Ya’ll

If you haven’t heard, I won!!! Yes I was excited, everyone there was very nice it was a great experience. It was good to get back on stage after a year. Kim Ferrell was one of the judges, it was good to see her again. I got my hamburger from Terry’s Turf Club…….all I can say is YUMMY! My head is back down, I have seven weeks till the Master Nationals. I have photo shoots this weekend and next……busy girl.
I’m also excited to say that after the Master’s I’m flying to Ft. Myers to shoot with Denise…….very excited about that!
I wanted to include a pic of me eating that hamburger but I can’t seem to get it down loaded from my phone….I’ll keep trying. I have included video from the show that Mark was so sweet to send me.
Kisses

Here’s wishing each and every brave man and woman servering our great country a Special THANK YOU, not only to you but to your families!
I’m up on my last week before my 1st show since 2009 USA, I’m truly looking forward to getting back on stage. It’s been a long road but a very rewarding one. I’m in a new place with new clients that have never made this journey with me. They are all very special to me and I appreciate each one. I COULDN’T DO THIS WITHOUT THERE SUPPORT. They watch as I do hours of cardio, live on as little as possible…………they all ask the same question Why? I have a goal, plain and simple one that has burned in me for a long time, I have to see this through. I’ve giving up a lot, to move closer to this one thing that I want for myself. Am I foolish, who knows, who cares……this is my life, I’m the only one that I have to look at the mirror at and I want to be able to say that I gave 200% of myself! So ya’ll will be the first to know what happens, ok maybe second I do have to call me kids.
Here’s wishing me luck, and ya’ll keep your fingers crossed!
I’m adding a picture that was taken about 2 months ago by an amazing photographer Anthony Antal of Precious Memory Creations here in Cincy. He mainly does weddings but I think he rocked out the FBB thing too…….check me out on FB to see more of his work.
Kisses ; )

Whats up everybody, hope ya’ll had a great weekend. I did had photo shoots this weekend, they went well. Can’t wait for ya’ll to see all the new updates that are coming…….let’s just say they’re H O T !!!!
You know I went to Jackson Tn last weekend and that was so great to see Patti, Brandie and Darren. Patti gave me the hook up and my face looks great, yes I drove 5 hrs to see her because Patti Yellen of The Plastic Surgery Clinic of Jackson is the best and the only person I trusted to do my face. How I look is everything and I don’t have the time or the money to take a chance on just anyone. Everyone has said how great I look and now they are thinking of making the drive.
I’m 3 weeks away from my first show of the year, at least they don’t have weight classes at this show and I don’t have to worry about what I’m going to weigh. I’m so ready to be on stage again, I’ve missed being there. I can’t wait to get that very expensive posing suit out and get some wear out of it.
Hugs and kisses….I miss ya’ll

First let me just say that it feels soooo good to be surrounded by people that care about you. Two very special friends have done something so special for me that I’m not sure if I’ll be able to thank them enough. Let’s just put it this way one gave me money and the other one is cutting me a huge deal so I can walk on stage being the very best I can be………..and there are no words that can be said that will let either know what that means to me. All I know is that come July 22 I’ve got to bring it and be the best I can be, I have no control over who is there or what the judges are looking for but what I do have control over is me!!! That means knowing i’ve done everything that I could do to win and I left it on gym floor.
I had dinner friends at the Corner Stone on Saturday night and then a little pub on the corner in down town Montgomery…..I had a great time! Everyone here is very conservative, but not me and I was rocking that orange dress of mine ; )……..
Next Saturday I’ll be in Jackson Tn…..seeing Patti Yellen who will work her magic on me, I’m going to tell you now she is the BEST and if you are not seeing her you are insane. If I’m going to drive 5 hours to see her because there’s no one here I trust.. that is telling you something! Botox heven here I come!!! I’m also trying to get the word out that I’m going to be at the Down Town Tavren n Jackson next Saturday nite…….I would love to see everyone!! I miss my Jackson friends, it’s been too long!
Another week with my head down, that’s ok……if it was easy everyone would do it!
Kisses ya’ll ; )

I’m not doing much today, just resting and getting ready for another busy week… Being in competition mode is difficult at best, I have my good and bad days. Friday was weigh in, I have to say that I was more than excited to see the number on that scale smaller, it was even better than I had been hoping for. What do you weigh you ask, well I’m not sure that’s a polite thing to ask a lady, but you know me I don’t mind sharing the most personal things. 141lbs…..yes I have to admit I would have smiled at 145lbs, but there were screams of joy for 141. I also worked with my trainer on posing Friday, you forget how damn hard that shit is. All he had to say is we’ve got a lot of work to do, no shit……that’s why we are here!!!! He was very sweet by saying that I’m the best balanced that he has ever seen me and feels like I have no week points. I was going to Louisville KY yesterday to a BB show, but all it’s done is rain here and who really wants to drive in the rain for 2 hours and I didn’t get a room so I would have had to drive all the way back late last night. Well instead I went to the mall, OMG it was like faith sent me there because I got the hottest 2 pairs of boots I’ve seen in a long time and better yet I got both for $30, let me just say that just puts a smile on my lil face.
As of this moment my plans are to compete at the NPC Indianapolis on June 4th, then on to the Master National on July 22 and according to what happens there I guess I decide then. I will say I’m going to hit as many shows as I can afford to do till I get what I want!!!!!!!
There is always new stuff on my site and while i am in this contest mode i will be doing alot of photoshoots and adding new pics!!!!!!
Don’t forget to follow me on FB
I love ya’ll

The sun in shining and I can’t stop smiling, everything that I needed to get done this weekend was done and checked off. I went to Ester Pice and got chocolates and treates for my daughter, got a swim suit and a cute outfit for my granddaughter. Today as been sooo great, the sun is shining and everything is perfect!!!!!

Kisses to you alll!!!!

I have good days and bad, some days if you look at me wrong I might just bite your head off and others the sun is shining and there’s not a problem in the world. Can you image not having one tiny bite of carbs from Sunday thur Thursday. Friday rolls around and 1 rice cake with each meal????? trust the word cake doesn’t really suit the cake, a crumbley mess that’s just going to make you anger to eat. I’ve been out of the game for a year and it’s kind of a crazy ride of mood swings, wondering in your head are you as strong as you once were…..DAMN RIGHT I AM. I didn’t say it was going to be easy, that not what I’m about……if this was easy everyone would be doing it. I’m proud to be a bodybuilder! I’m proud to stand up for what I believe are my rights as an American…..FREE SPEECH, and being and looking whatever way I see fit. So kisses to all of you that have stuck by me all this time….STAY TUNED, i have alot of NEW photos and many photoshoots to come in the next few months !!
Kisses Always ; )

I know you wonder why I don’t blog very much, and mind you, I want to…..but……I’m always censored and you know how much I hate that, I’m so much a girl that just likes to speak her mind! OOOOOOH Well, what are you going to do???? I had the best time in Mississippi last weekend with my children and the cutiest lil grand baby ever!!! I stayed with my friends Mel and Charlie that own the Boiling Point. I have one thing to say……..I’ve been in Ohio now for over a year and no one anywhere has treated me as a freak, well in my beloved south were I’m treated as a freak, made fun of and pointed at. REALLY………….were you born in a barn…..oh yeah you were. I feel so sorry for people that don’t understand people that are different, I think it’s GREAT, those are the people that I always make eye contact with and smile.
Well June is on it’s way, the 1st contest is coming….The NPC Indianapolis and then on to the Masters in July. I’m feeling good and looking forward to being the very best I can be. I’ve brought up all my weak points and it’s on……………I’ve got a great package and I’m excited to show everyone to see.
I’ll be webbing to you soon, I’m doing a great photo shoot this weekend after that I’ll have time for some one on one time with you all my fans ; )

I was on a full run…..barely made it there Friday for the pre-judging for the MS International pro women due to the parking and the rain. They must have had the girls come in smooth this year because that was the state of the union. As always Iris is the girl to beat………but it can’t be done! I was sad to see they didn’t have my friend Lisa Cross, England’s champ there, she totally deserved to be on that stage.
I had some great shoots, with Tom9 and Brian Moss… I’m soooo pleased with how things went. My Saturday morning shoot went too long so the other Tom, I didn’t get to shoot with and I’m sorry. I got to eat and enjoy the expo………..spent time with Denise and Robert which was fun.
There were so many people this year it was more than impossible to walk…good things the girls were out, cause it help to part the crowd.
I hope you’re a member……there are exciting things to come,
Kisses Ya’ll

I didn’t get to post and let ya’ll know there was a photo shoot a couple a weeks ago. All my expectations were blown out the roof! Dan Ray always said, the hardest thing about shooting me was just keeping up with me. Wow Brett, did that and more……….what an eye! Ya’ll just keep an eye open for those updates, just know that just hints will be revealed on the visitor tour, sorry guys you got to be a member ; ) I’m so looking forward to the Arnold, I’ve got soooo many great things to shoot in, and I just can’t wait to see everyone! I want to say a HUGE THANK YOU to Gretchen who despite the weight of the world did my hair today!
Ya’ll don’t be shy, if you see me there, please say Hi!
Kisses

What a fun wkend I’ve had, there’s a lot to be said for having a life and not working fucking 24/7……….It’s tons of fun being here in Cincy so much to do and see. The history in this city is amazing! I’m totally at home here, even though my heart will always be in the south. I’m going to the Arnold, have several shoots lined up, and just a heads up, if you’ve been a member longer than a year………i’m working on getting that content back for you ; )
I had an excellent back workout so I did a double bicep for you!
Kisses

OMG……….what a great wkend. Guys it’s been a year since I’ve done a photo shoot and I forgot how much fun that was!!!! It was great, and after all the fun I got to go out in downtown Indy….that was too much fun and worth all the dieting I had done. As soon as they get the photo’s back to me I’ll be getting them to my webmaster ; ) be patient, it’s so worth it.
Kisses……………..

It’s truly been a wild ride this year! A year ago this week I moved to Cincy OH….found a job, lost a job, found another job. Lost a dog……had a daughter get pregnant, had knee surgery, had a grand daughter……this story is on fast forward, because I’m ready for 2010 to be gone and don’t let the door hit you in the ass. 2009 was such an adventurous year, with competing, photo shoots, travel, you name it I did it. 2010 not that exciting, but life lessons out the ass! As I embrace the new year coming, you always have to reflect on the year your leaving. 2011 what’s it hold, It has to be that I compete, I deal with the stress of my daily life more positive, and I learn to embrace the life that I have and cherish each moment that I’m giving as it is my last. If we don’t learn from lifes lessons and grow from each experience that we are lucky enough to have, what a waste of life.
Just remember, its what we do for others that really count, not what we do for ourselves.
May life bless you with what you need, and some of the things you want!
Cheer’s and Happy New Year

That was the colors of the evening at the company Christmas party. I had a great time, it was very inspiring. The new commercial for the personal training dept. made me cry. Very moving!!!!!!!!! Yes I would have killed to be up there and getting an award, but you know I get my reward everyday looking at the faces of my clients knowing that I’m making a difference in their lives. You know I have trophies for bodybuilding, no one remembers any of that. The only thing we are truly remembered for is what we do for others.
The birthday is this week, 49 WOW that wouldn’t hurt so bad if I could just get some botox!!!! Not really sure what I’m going to celebrate yet, I’m sure I’ll think of something ; )
Kisses Ya’ll

Yes, some people get a day, some a whole week…..in my lil world I get the whole month!!! The best birthday gift I could get is BOTOX……damn I’m having a botox emergency!
This week there has been highs and lows….mostly lows……but Thursday the tide shifted and then Friday it hit a high. You know when you’re truly lucky enough to have someone in your life that cares and is truly is a leader. I have that in this special person that is my VP and I just want all of you to know that if you’re in a position of authority treat your people the way you want to be treated……..don’t be a selfish ass! There is no I in team!!!!!!
It’s Saturday I worked till 1, then worked out at one of the other clubs, then off to shop!
Now watching the SEC, (football) and just watching it snow!
Getting ready for next weekend the big company party………….
Kisses to you all

I went to Hallmark and got one of the books that records your voice, so I got one for my new Grandaughter Ayla for Christmas. No matter how old she is she’ll be able to hear my voice. Wow I have a deep voice….LOL

Ok I’m not sure how to even start this story off, if you been with me a while you know that I’ve dealt with a lot of bullshit from people just cause I have a web site. I think it’s funny that the people throwing the stones have turned out over the past year to be the ones with the most skeletons in their closets back home down south. I mean really…… there was the one that at the end of the day was having an affair, destroyed her whole family. Now I found out that back home there’s someone big in the community that is a swinger……he’s married and apparently they had key parties. Who ever key you get that who you go home with………….REALLY!! WHAT THE FUCK…….I can’t stop laughing. I had to forward that text to everyone I know back home!!!! Am I evil……LOL maybe a little!!!
Pay back is hell baby………I love me some karma!

I hope everyone had a great Thanksgiving, 1st time I’ve not been with my family, I was bummed all day. Christmas I’m going home and I can’t wait, January is coming and in the health clubs business it’s time to get your ass kicked and make some money.
Ya’ll be good
KISSES ; )

I’m really upset, WHAT THE FUCK! Why is the NPC and the IFBB so concern about us poor lil FBB ‘s why do they want to destory us…….just don’t get it. We have fan’s, our fan’s spend money!!! I get so sick of all of this, have some of the girls taken the drug thing too far….yes, did they mean to, I’m sure they didn’t just was getting bad advise from the wrong person. I’ve never wanted to look like a man, even though I wanted to be as muscular as my frame could be. I LOVE MUSCLE! I THINK IT’S SEXY! on men and women. It seems that I’ve got at least one to two years left before the whole thang goes to shit. I mean really, the damn figure girls at the pro level look like FBB’s so I just don’t fucking get it. OOOOOO well, thank God my time is just about over anyway. I love being big, and don’t give a fuck what anyone thinks!!!!
GO MUSCLE GIRLS!!!! NEVER CONFORM TO WHAT OTHERS THINK YOU SHOULD BE! ALWAYS BE TRUE TO YOURSELF!!!!!

I have lots to catch ya’ll up on, but the most important thing is my lil Ayla Madison Wims is now in this world. What a beautiful lil ray of sunshine she is. She was born Monday Nov 8th @9:53 7lbs 5oz. I barely made it to Memphis in time, I was there all week helping my daughter. I was back to work on Friday and nothing and no one can wipe the smile from my face.
I went to the Kentucky Muscle show to watch Ella at her 1st pro show. She did great, she places 9th!!!! That was a huge big deal. I didn’t stay for the fbb part because the announcer said it wasn’t a good turn out so why stay. I was excited to get to the 4th st live and get my party on!
Time to get back to work tomorrow, goals!!!!!! I only got to workout twice last week, and I got to get my PT sells back up.
I’m so glad to get a chance to talk to ya’ll!!!!!!!!!
Kisses ; )

Hmmmmmmmm what could that title mean? O let me tell you! How long have I been a personal trainer O just for as long as I can remember and this has never ever happen. God love this man, cause I do and I know he didn’t mean to do it BUT we were tossing a med ball to each other and I’m not sure what really happen I think I must have left my body because of the pain all I know is I looked down a my pinky finger was off to the side of my hand…..OMG! The whole club heard me scream. All is well after a visit to the emergency room……all I can say is only me!

I have to say I have good/bad days. Some days I want to just run screaming from my life, and others I got a great big smile on my face and just couldn’t be happier. It’s so hard to be great at everything……..which apparently that’s what I want! Great at bodybuilding, great at being a QCS, great at being a mother, a soon to be grandmother. What I’m saying if any of you out there figures out how to clone people, please feel free to contact me CAUSE I NEED AT LEAST 3 OF THEM. LOL A girl can dream!
My guys are dressing up Saturday as 70′s-80′s workout people. I hope I can find a thong outfit cause that’s how I rolled in the 80′s. Don’t worry I’ll be taken some pics!!
Kisses Ya’ll

Sports are a big deal here in Cincy, my fingers are crossed for the Reds and the Bengals. I’ve had a great weekend, I love to enjoy myself…………and this has been a good weekend.
My granddaughter is coming very soon, can’t wait to see her….she just has to be a little more patient. In the next two weeks lil Ayla will be here, I just can’t wait to see her.
I’m so happy to be squating again, my legs are coming back…….I had someone say to me the other day that I had disappreared…..well it’s true I have that doesn’t mean I’m done. I’ve always done things the smart way, taken my time, I truly hate half assing things. When I play I play to win. No one will be looking for me but I’m coming and you know what I always say AND HELL IS COMING WITH ME!
I look so cute yesterday, I wanted a pic of me…..just didn’t happen.
Kisses Ya’ll

Wow there were a ton of great competitors, as usual not very many FBB’s. The line up for the figure was top notch. There were some very beefie men on stage too. I had a great time, didn’t see anyone I knew and it seems that the attendance was very low. People don’t dress like they do down south for a BB show. So I didn’t wear my whore clothes last night, but you know those very tight jeans that I have….you know there are pics of me in them. It was good to have a weekend, I even got out of the house today and did some shopping.
This week, for the 1st time in almost a year I squated, yes I back. My legs hurt so fucking bad I can’t walk, I’ve missed that feeling………….I’ve got photo shoots coming in Oct, so I’m dieting and working hard toward my goals. 2011 is coming and I’m going to be back. Life just keeps me on my toes, I will not stop running as hard as I can toward what I want out of this life. True things don’t always turn out like you want them to, but I keep thinking fuck it………….I can’t give up! Things get in my way, people piss me off, I want to scream at the top of my lungs some days. It’s okay, I’m not going to let life control me, only I control me! Life happens, the winners are the ones that continue to get up and fight. I miss ya’ll, I hope that it will be possible for me to come to the Nationals this year for photos and to see everyone. Love hearing from ya’ll
KISSES!!!!

I went to my 1st get together here in Cincy. I’ve heard people talk about this whole corn hole game…..this was my 1st chance to see it played. I have to say I don’t get it. The party was held by my district managers, I had a great time, good food.
Funny today I finally got all these boxes out of my apt. It feels so much better, I just need a kitchen table……I could start web caming again. HAHA in my spare time……I wish!
We got a step mill at the club, I was sooo excited. I’ve been doing my cardio every day. I’ve got photo shoots lined up so it’s time to get in on-season shape. I did my 1st leg workout Saturday……it went well.
The Ohio Championship is coming up in Sept. planing on going. The Nationals are in Atlanta this year…………if all goes well I’ll be there.
Ya’ll take care
Kisses

I work hard and I play hard, it’s always been that way. I had a little too much to drink Friday night so Saturday morning I wanted my favorite thing to get me over the edge…..Chick-fil-a well in Miss. you would be sitting in line for 15 min, I drive up and there’s no one. the Ohio people just don’t get it……OMG! There’s lot’s of drama going on back in Miss, I can’t say what. I love my kids I just wish things were easier for them. I guess we all have our on lifes to live. It’s great to have a trainer again, I feel good…..it will be better when I can do legs again. I want to taste life again…………be on stage. MATTER……I WANT TO MATTER! Being a trainer, a mother…..all these things matter but I have my own goals, my own needs that only can be met by being on stage, getting my pro-card. I have dreams…………………I will not stop, EVER!

Well I’m glad to report the knee is getting better, I want to say a BIG THANK YOU to Dr Art Lee for doing a great job on my knee. What a week, I’m so tired even though I didn’t get out of bed till 3 this afternoon. I’m such a lucky girl I have my trainer back, you have no ideal of the importance of that. I’m very busy and it’s really easy for me to just say fuck it and not workout… it’s SOOOO good to be accountable to someone. The sacrifice was great for him to do that for me, I’ll thank him next year when I give him his 2nd Pro competitor. There’s been lots of offers for photo shoots, I’ll get back to that very soon. I have a great bunch that I’m working with that makes the long hours worth it. If you have time to check me out on Andy’s page!!! It’s time for another pay period and another time to win!!!!

OMG! How great is this, 1st in tunca Anna gets 1st in bikini and Callie gets 3rd can’t tell you how proud I am!!!!!!!!!!!! Then my trainer has his 1st pro…….Ella Horton got her pro card last nite at the masters………he could not be prouder of her, and I of him. Yes so there’s a little jealously…….I want mine. It’s ok, he will be at my club starting tomorrow and I’ll be back working in the right direction. I went to the dr Friday, it was good to know that the pain I’m in is normal and it’s just going to be a long time before I’m complete. I know that it been a moment by moment and step by step for me after moving here in Cincy, but I want you all to know that I’m very happy. Between the knee and my youngest girl having my 1st of many I hope grandbabies. I want you to know that competing had to take a back seat. I’m not done, and it aint over baby. I’m always moving forward never sitting down long to reflect or feel sorry for myself. I want to challenge myself and others, stopping is not what I’m about, it never has been. So enjoy your time out there without me being there……..but 2011 I’ll be back and I taste blood……………………………

well the knee is getting better but never as fast as i would like. got back to regular training this past week…at least upper body anyway.lol.
Lots of shows goin on this month, i have friends that will be doing shows back n mississippi this past weekend, congradulations to Lequita the mississippi state champ. my friend Chris’s show will b next weekend n Tunica and cant wait to see how Anna and Callie look for that show.
Its been tough this year missing some of the big shows this year because of work and now sugery, especially this week at the Tampa Show, i actually heard from some fans there wanting to know if i would be there this weekend. oh well, i plan to start making some shows and making plans for competition. stay tuned, i’ll let u know !!!!

Ok, knee surgery is apparently like having a baby or a boob job. All your friends lie to you, o it aint that bad. Well I’m here to say I thought it wasn’t too bad till I went back to work Monday cause I thought oh I’ll be ok. Fuck…..I thought I was going to die or throw-up on one of my clients. Today was a better day, I actually rode a bike for 30 min. was that too long maybe, cause as I’m talking to you and I’ve got ice on my knee. I did get to go home on the 4th and see children and friends which was nice but short. My oldest has found a really nice guy, my middle son is still a little rock head but I just love him. He’s too much like me and then when he smiles I just melt. The baby girl, well she’s pregnant how crazy that was for me seeing her for the 1st time and all I have to say in WOW! Callie, Anna, Mel and Charlie came and it just did my heart good to see everyone…..
My job IS a handful, all the wonderful clients that I have and trying to do all the management things on a daily basis. I have to say I love my job….I’m not talking about Personal Training….ya’ll know how I feel about that….It’s the managing thang that is just tons of work. I’m getting better everyday, as a club owner before I would say whatever….now I have to be a little more cafeful about what comes out of my mouth. That’s hard when I don’t really have a filter from my head to my mouth. All right my dears the pain meds are kicking in…….I might need to stop
Thanks so much for staying with me…………you know how much that makes me feel.
Kisses and hugs to you, I hope to see you soon
KISSES

hey guys, having knee surgery tuesday at noon. looking forward to getting this fixed, it has been holding me back since last july when i had a fall n LAX on the way back from photo and video shoots…wish me well, Ill let u know how it goes.
Kisses
Wanda

well after struggling with a knee injury for almost a year now, i am finially going to get it fixed. since i have been so busy with a new job and moving to Cincinnati this year i havent been able to focus 100% on competing. sooo tuesday i am getting my knee scoped so i can get back to training hard again. im looking forward to not being n pain so much either….
Also i am planning on making a much needed trip back to southaven mississippi to see family and catch up with friends over the july 4th weekend. i plan to hit the Boling Point resturant while im in town…ive been missin southern cookin BAD !!!! well thats all for now but i will keep you posted on how everything goes !!!!
kisses

well folks, i thought i had moved to a place that didnt have that opressive summer heat the south has….WRONG..it was 92 today and humid. yes i know it was almost 100 n memphis today but i still would like some cooler temps. Congrads to all my friends thats did great at the Southern Classic last weekend, always my fav show. My girl Anna placed n the top 5 n bikini n her first show after losing down from over 200 lbs, SOOOO proud of her and i will include a pic.
Jen and Ella did great n the figure and will do great n their national shows this year.
As for me i have got settled into my routine here n Cincy now but still have the lingering issue of my knee injury from last year after the USA which i will finially be getting fixed soon, so stay tuned and i will let y’all know how it all goes.

ANNA

i want to wish Happy Memorial Day to all the veterans today, we never need to forget to remember what they have done for our country……we’ll for my weekend i spent the majority of it workin as usual these days.
i am training hard and trying to finially get on a regular schedule. my personal training has been soooo busy it has been hard to find time for myself but im making gains and i have met alot of great people here n Cincy.
I miss all my friends back home n Mississippi like Christy, Brian, Randy,Callie, Lequita and Anna. I wish them all the best this year n their competitions and u can track them on my facebook account.
im not sure about my own competition plans for this year yet but i will keep everyone updated as soon as i know.
kisses

You know you think when you get older that you’ve learned just about everything you can learn about life. Well let me just tell you, you never stop learning. I’ve always felt that when things are at there darkest that the best was always just around the corner. I chooce to stay postive about each and everything that is going on in my life anything else would be a waste of my time. I’m starting my diet, I’m very determine to continue my bodybuilding career because it makes me happy, but it doesn’t defind me…..I’m excited about mother’s day…..my little girl is having her 1st baby….just really brings everything back to the most simplest and most important…………
Ya’ll be good…………………

It’s a beautiful Saturday in Cincy, I worked till 2 then it was out to enjoy the sun. Took my lil Bell out for a walk, she didn’t care for it much, I guess it was just too cold for the lil thing. Fresh air just does a body good. Sunday’s are my day to just sleep, I try to only get out of bed to eat………..wow that sounds sad. This Sunday going back to the club to take a cert/workshop for TRX. I’m excited to learn new stuff…….just hope I can survive next week. Things seem to be going well, I really do need some more trainers…so if you know any good ones….PLEASE send them my way. I know you want to know what I’m going to do with my bodybuilding, well it aint over to the fat lady sings and she aint ready to sing yet……I will compete this year, I just have to get a handle on this job and my time. Just wanted to catch ya’ll up on me, thank you so much for the emails and the love you send me, you just make a girl blush.
KISSES : )